>> Saturday, June 13, 2009
Jeff King asked why I like Dark Novels. This is a good question and I have thought about it a bit in the past. I think it started in High School when I was really into the Gothic scene. I loved dark stuff and had a fascination with vampires. I read Interview With a Vampire by Anne Rice because I was not allowed to watch it. I do believe that I would not have been allowed to read it either if my mom had known more about it.
Some of it may be because I was a very sheltered child an my big way of rebelling was to wear black and smoke. I never got into drugs or alcohol but I did like to escape into a world that doesn't exist. I like a good hero or heroine but one who struggles with the line between good and evil.
I like the dark stuff I did as a teen and I do now. I also believe that few things are impossible and that humans would actually learn a lot by attempting to put themselves in another persons shoes real or fantasy.
As I mentioned earlier I grew up in a very sheltered Christian home. I had good but over protective parents. I wouldn't do any of my childhood over again because I believe it has made me the person I am now. I also believe there are a lot worse things than overprotective parents. Just want you to know I am not one who hates my parents I loved my dad who has passed on just as much as I still love my mom.
The sheltered life in church and Christian schools also stifled my imagination, I believe. So as I got older I found ways to let it out or bring it in. It started with vampires because they are such a part of the Gothic culture I was into and still am to a much lesser degree. They were also less likely to be associated with witches and witch craft the things my parents worried about because I was a weird child. I was also not allowed to watch or read much with magic, my mom and I to this day can not talk about Harry Potter because I love it and she thinks it is wrong.
It took me a while to get to the point where I began to realize fantasy is just that. There may be real people who practice witch craft out their but they are also the first people who will tell you that they don't throw fire balls or thunder bolts. The more I learn most people call themselves witches are just normal people following an alternative religion.
I am not sure myself why the Christians I have across are so afraid of competing religious belifs but I think that fear of others is what has driven me to learn more about it. It has driven me to challenge my own faith. I am still a Christian but I don't take others assertions to what is right and wrong so seriosly anymore. I also don't belive it is my duty to convert everyone to my religious views.
I feel like the odd one out a lot of time until I get the occasion to meet a parent who has an odd child like me. I get to advise them to let thier child express themselves in the small things, compromise with the way they dress. If they are old enought let them get a pericing or color thier hair black.
I deal with a lot of crap sometimes from the Christian community who equates darkness with evil. I say God invented black and he also invented darkness. If they would recall thier Biblical history He made day and night, light and dark. If they belive how can they belive that darkness is evil.
So all of that background just to tell you I am attracted to dark novels because they are my favorite way of escaping the real world I have to live in every day. I love supernatural worlds that I can not really live in. Even the stuff that has potential to be such as ghosts or psychics is not something I actually experience. It is something that gives me the most vivid and fun dreams. So the reading usually extends to my sleeping creating wonderful new worlds to play in. I guess it is like the mental version of a video game or something.
I will be back to edit this just wanted to post it now before I have second thoughts about sharing so much of myself.